We all go through hard times. We all go through seasons. I'm thankful for the change in seasons and how God keeps things interesting. But why am I not thankful for hard times? They draw me closer to the Lord. They bring me to my knees. They humble me and sober me but why do I just want to get through them? To just be on the other side. To have all my prayers answered the way I want them answered. To be through the pain. I guess we all rush it, we all don't want difficult times, because they hurt. Not only that, they shake our faith. They make us wonder what we did to deserve this, where is God, why didn't we see this coming, and a host of other doubts.
As a mother, I've been through hard times before but these past months have truly been some of the hardest. Though I can't get into the details, God has been faithful. God is using this to draw me closer to Him and to get rid of any idols in my life. I've learned to just let Him have it all, to just give it to Him and walk away. As a mother, when it comes to our children, this is very hard. No matter how old they may be, they are still our babies and really a part of us. But as they age, we have to slowly let go and this means letting them make mistakes. We can't control them anymore. We can only trust God with them. He loves them even more than we do.
I wanted to write this post not only to explain why I have not blogged lately, but to encourage anyone going through difficult times as well. You are not alone. We all smile and many times pretend everything is fine, but we need to be more transparent with each other. We need to ask for help, ask for prayer and not be afraid of being judged. I also wanted to encourage all of us moms to "let go and let God." I know that sounds cliche but really it's true. Our children are not our own. They are the Lord's and we have been given them for a time as stewards. We may be able to control them when they are little but not forever. The sooner we learn to let go, to trust them to the Lord, really the better it will be....not only in our own heart but in theirs as well.
Job 2:10 "Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?"